Wednesday, August 26, 2009

IV, III, II, I, 0

hi.em 1st i xpandai nk mgarang ting tong kt cni but mlm ni terigin pulk i nk menulis2 when mcm best korg posting articles mcm2. i xde ape cerita juz sje mgisi ruangan kosong kt blog ni.progressing eth smpi bile tah.awal mmg plan da tp brother ni banyak sgt sengal so wat aku fedup nk tgok barag2 dia. so myb aku akan bergerak sololist je:D.so skrg suppose blog clothings jd la blog curahan perasaan kjp. grrr teragak nk delete aku delete ler.
condition - hey zam pucat sgt muke ko ni.mkn ckit jgn degil.kne mkn telor ayam kg n madu ni.kasi bikin darah balik.tuhari 2 tabung kne derma tanpa rela.hermm masih igt g wajah dak nurse yg terkebil2 carik urat akuigt xigt la coz semua pki mask umpama zorro.aduh aik blh meggigil plk nurse ni. 1st time ke pe?tgok tag name dak pratical nursing nilai.abg xde darah la pada hal urat dia cucuk xkne tepat kt urat then blh plk godek2 urat aku guna jarum tu.naek panas aku tgok aku sabar da hilg kn so adik cucuk xkne tempat la.godek lagi watpe?cett rosak urat aku kang igt ade jual ke?dah mula sorg lagi, abg cucuk kt tangan sebelah pulak ea.darah xbyk la.xcukup ni.ouh no no.enough sebelah.u can have it but not fom both side k.t xmo pisang buah lagi.sekali lagi lak kang dia godek2 urat aku.cett!! gile! apsal hospital ni da training kasi la yg expert jge kan diorg ni.klu wat mistake sape lor nk teguq.rite? mlm ni mlm ke3 aku still demam.mcmni la kot diorg demam2 skrg ni rasenye. pale zazzzz jalan mcm nk berpusing2 dah.badan panas sbnrnye.pelik gak aku tetibe je ley demam.mlm tu baring2 sakit pale then terus denyut then terus panas badan.tp demam ni laen mcm gak la.aku jrg demam tp klu demam mmg terbaring le.sendi2 aku sengal2.pingg.tekak.aduh.tp kjp kang ok then tetibe panas balik.nampaknye demam ni berbalik2.mmm ubat uphomol da berbijik2 aku telan still mcm xde action je.skrg ni krp hujan. gerimis n da 2 mlm aku xke suraw wat tarawikh.ermm tarawikh kt rumah pon boleh ape tp sendirian ler.pale pening kn da xlarat nk jln pon da bebintang2. tp mlm td mmg aku xwat tarawikh pon aduh.tp tghari mmber 1 tarawikh call.zam kt mne? one drop sekotak ade? yup ade 45.then dia dtg capai.aku time ni still diawangan lagi.badan still panas n batok2.ermm aik demam ke.g la klinik beb.mmg la joe nk g klinik t ni klu xley bla kne gak la date ngn doktor. ko ni tetibe je demam.demam rindu ke ape? grrrr ni mcm kne fire lak.ade ke demam mcmtu joe? oi yob!demam rindu ker.mmm.. jgn demam h1n1 da le aku nk hidup lame lg klu blh.amalan aku dah la tunggang langang g.mudah2an sempat le aku kawin dulu timang anak2.didik mjdi anak yg soleh.sbb aku taw tulah saham aku klu aku da mati nti.anak yg soleh dpt saham tok aku.sedekah yg bpjgan.n ilmu yg bermanafaat. ermmmm lame gak aku borak2.yg utamanye aku suh dak ni adjust kje kt ctu.di ni kje mps(majlis) gov ler.aku da bkali dah adjust tp hampa but dia dpt.zam lu kne pki cable dude.xde cable susah maw dpt.dia knl org no 2 kt ctu.so nti lepas raya xslh ade kosong .juruteknik etc.t wa amik form lu fill in n thiz time u kne pki cable lor.henjut je la labu.aku tgok dia pon da senyum lebar ckit skrg.masyuk le tu.aku lg le nk pk mcm2 :D kne ade azam skrg kumpul duit(grrrrr) niat mesti kne baek.da kawin dah ade tgjwp.aku captain.nti kne bimbing asisstance.bile da de crew2 kapal kne bimbing gak.tajgwp semua captain nk kne tggug tu.klu xbtol aku le yg kne dipersalahkn so assistant kne gak la dgr captain ckp klu xbetol assistant kne tegur si captain ni.kkdg captain pon lalai gak yelah org baru jd captain.hehe.yg penting plyaran tu terus ke akhir hayat ini.sling myintai da membawa ke ahirat nanti.herm amin.mlm ni genap le aku 28 thn.td aku try call tp bjwp.rindu sbnrnye tp eth dia fhm rasa ke x.gelora didada.grrr. yup myb dia need more time tp i musykil.i xdpt jwpan? knpa? knpa dgn u? y u don put som respond so i can see my weaknesses etc.goshhhh!! am built thiz with trust on u. y? am not the best for u?is that watta u thinking?openup ur eyes openup ur mind(openup my mind too!!).i xkn menyesal coz dr awal i da bilang ape niat di hati i pasang.well there for GOD.huh.yeah u free to find then.perlukh aku stop disini.aku bertanya.aku masih berdiri nafas pon turun naek lagi.still alive kan so wat i nk claim tot tet. keep moving ahead.i keep bear in thiz mind gak..zam beware.aha? its free to judge on me dear. everyone should. i taw ape yg i pk. ape yg i lalu.ape yg i cari.ape yg i mahu. but everything com slowly somtimes am put an afford on it.i do but still am in sense with my famlies.i do wateva i can.but do they tried get into my situation so far?grr jus lead me towards the gloriness.i wish i can change..end for now. ouh Ramahdan kali ini sinarkan kebhagian buat ku dan kami semua. aku masih igt saat aku bersama org2 tersyg then pelahan2 pergi.alfatihah hadiah utk mu.ayahanda ku.doakn anak mu ini terus dgn perjuangannye.dan kita kan bersama nanti...

mzamreal 28 shall speak out loud!

Speak about Real

Respect this right here nigga.. I-M-D You must play this.. I-M-D, word up Yeah, you know, Infamous Mobb Deep It's real.. check it out tho' Respect the I-M-D Fresh out the car in the R-A-double-P, E-R P-E-double, when I speak it gets real Flakes try to tell me, "Yo Dunn, nah chill You can't come out, wylin out like that Rhymes so vivid Dunn I see what you sayin" But you gotta understand how I feel The pain and the hardship it took to build Years of frustration, some got killed Others fell vic' to the gates of steel Most try to instill sanity still stuck on this rock where we don't belong I wanna go home not sing this song but I'm forced to perform speech napalm Calm, surrounded by all types of harm Dogg man fuck your screwface I watch hands Watch your hands nigga, I see that, word up.. Word up, peep y'all cats movements Laid back in the cut like what? Pay attention.. check it out Dunn I'm bein watched by snake eyes Peep them shed skin plenty times Surrounded by crash dummies and empty minds Get your shit together Dunn, see between the lines Stay awoke, to the ways of the wickedest kind Infamous - cause of the way, I write rhymes Plus my story's more foul than your newborn eatin swine (Stupid) Catch a seat, it's about to get deep like squeezin flouride on your brush for your teeth or, takin your seed to get shots every week We need to pay more attention to our surroundings Busy wildin, all for the wrong cause Put that same strength into somethin that'll pay off Don't forget your soul's involved That same energy you put out, comes right back it revolves I smash you, Dunn only if I have to I would hate to, but I'll be more than glad to The positive and negative war has now begun P helps you seperate both the sides Let the truth arise, black devil don't hide You can't hide from me, you might from the others I've been employed to pull your ass out from the covers You walk like you got hooves and talk like you 'sposed to Trickin my brothers into followin you? Yo Potential energy is easily made kinetic I turn 'em all back where they belong, don't wet it What? Set it.. Set it nigga, fuckin fake-ass motherfuckers Take your mask off nigga what? (what.. what..)